January 27, 2020

Al's Review of 2019 In Music

Last updated January 28 2020.

Year by year, decade by decade, I feel as though I move further and further away from radio. I still feel a nostalgic twinge when I think back on the 90s, and how turning on the boombox guaranteed that you'd hear an catchy hit. You might have had to sit through some overplayed, saccharine chart hits to get to anything fresh, but those hits helped define the decade. Same for the 80s. And the 70s. The 60s. And so on.

In terms of variety, the current era is probably the best time to be a music fan. Granted that music ownership may be in peril from the streaming model, streaming is a pretty flexible medium that allows me to listen to any genre, from any decade, any time and anywhere. The old hits I used to know and love are never really gone (save for some bands and one-hit wonders I've had to collect physically--that's a totally different rant though). So, I may not listen to a radio anymore, but some combination of Spotify, Amazon, Bandcamp, and Youtube will give me instant gratification for finding new songs and albums.

I found myself playing fewer CDs than usual in 2019. I did download loads of chillout tracks from a label on Bandcamp (a brand specifically called "Chill Hop," which is pretty smooth, if not a little repetitive). As usual, I picked up a lot of soundtrack music that caught my attention. Many of the bands I've paid attention to before are still pumping out new work.

What probably satisfied me the most this year was the amount of metal I came across. It's refreshing since I discovered less metal in 2018 and seemed to lean heavier on EDM type music. Now the pendulum swings back into the darkness, with pretty spectacular new work put out by Rammstein, Lacuna Coil, Tool, Dream Theater, KoRn, Opeth, Queensrÿche, and more. All these groups have given me a wealth of incredible new tunes that will continue to stir my imagination and make me pump my fist.

I have dabbled with the occasional electronic band as well. With my mind considering a possible new novel idea, I've started looking into more chiptune music (although I find myself gravitating towards, simply, listening to retro 8-bit video game tunes--I'll have to explore the genre some more). I wish I could say I heard more great pop and rock music, but the best I've found was the song made for Black Mirror--Ashley O's "On a Roll," which is nothing more than a bastardization of NIN's "Head Like a Hole," and done on purpose as a form of satire to match the episode of the show. And yet, Miley Cyrus made it so catchy.

From what I have heard, here are the latest albums and songs I enjoyed the most.

AL'S TOP 2019 ALBUMS

32: Anti-M - Pieces 

Pretty short collection of cover songs, but it's modestly satisfying. The band balances vocal beauty and powerful guitars in all the same ways that made me appreciate Damage. I find Pieces to be a little too mellow, but it could grow on me with its atmosphere and craftsmanship.

31: Bear McCreary - Godzilla: King of the Monsters Film Score 

Bear McCreary delivers the classic Godzilla themes we all know and love, now with fresh and powerful quality. Not only is it a sensible fit for the movie, but it's also pretty awe-inspiring to hear on its own. This album also deserves bonus points for including Serj Tankian's badass end credits song.

30: Delain - Hunter's Moon

Like most modern symphonic metal albums, this hits all the right notes. Vocals are strong, guitars are solid, the mood and atmosphere are on-point. Most of this album consists of live recordings, but for the original new songs, the guitars are exceptionally potent. Time will tell if this will grow on me more, but as of now all I can say is that it's solid.

29: Nemesea - White Flag 

This is one of those albums that I love half of and dislike the rest. I suppose that means it's a bit uneven. The slower tracks do nothing for me, but select songs--"Kids With Guns," "Don't Tell Me Your Name," "Fool's Gold," "Ratata"--are very catchy, with dramatic falls and uplifting rises that I find exhilarating. When the songs pick up, they hit hard, and I find myself replaying these select few quite often.

28: Okilly Dokilly - Howdilly Twodilly 

2019 was the year I learned that Ned Flanders themed metal--otherwise known as Nedal--is real. And man, it is as brutal as it is amusing. It makes me wonder how much anguish and torment Ned Flanders actually endures in the Simpsons. Judging the music can be a little overwhelming with its sheer noise, but I've come to appreciate select songs (favorites of mine being "When The Comet Gets Here," "I Can't It's a Geo," "Murder House," "Claw My Eyes Out"). The band is mostly a novelty meant for a laugh, but it does strike some surprising mood and gravitas at times. This band shall stand proudly next to my collection of Dethklok and Austrian Death Machine CDs.

27: Fury Weekend - Escape From Neon City

This brand of retrowave is on-point and I wouldn't fault it for much. The synths and percussion are groovy as ever. Fury Weekend is a little high-tempo for my taste, which is why I place it a grade below its brethren acts (Scandroid, Sunset Neon, Signal Void are more my speed). If it's a punch you want with your 80s future sound though, this album is well-built, fairly catchy, and keeps the momentum running consistently.

26: KoRn - The Nothing

There comes a point where one can't help but to listen to so much KoRn and not see it as a lot of whining. Trauma is part of their brand, and their music is an expression of pain and torments I couldn't possibly understand. And yet, there are points in this album where I feel as though the anguish becomes over-the-top, and I'm not entirely sure if I should laugh or cry at it. Still, this is a solid album for them, with a few songs I find catchy and interest. It's all as raw, dark, and powerful as one would expect. I find it more palatable than Jonathan Davis' solo effort, but not quite as good as The Paradigm Shift.

25: Opeth -  In Cauda Venenum

Opeth's latest album (a double-album nonetheless with a Swedish side and an English side) continues in the same vibe as their last few releases, with perhaps a bit more atmosphere. They're still not nearly as heavy and screamy as their initial works (which I'm fine with), but In Cauda Venenum still packs a fair punch with its deep guitars, bass, and vocal power.

24: Future Girlfriend Music - Through Space To See You 

I stumbled across this album randomly on Bandcamp, wondering if this is real J-pop or what. I wound up falling in love with the vibes it produced--it came off as a throwback, reminding me of how dance floors used to sound and feel. At the same time, it feels pretty fresh with its thumping percussion, pleasant accompaniments, and deep bass. This must be, like, the Japanese Daft Punk, and I find it soothing.

23: Tarja - In the Raw

It is my humble opinion that, of all musicians I know of, Tarja Turunen still boasts the best singing voice. Her latest solo album doesn't disappoint--her voice is still the star amidst a raging sea of rip-roaring guitars. Few guests join in the fray (including Christina Scabbia, holy crap!), offering a selection of songs that are fairly catchy, and often times haunting. Sounds raw, but still beautiful, just the way I like it.

22: Cassetter - Escape Plan (Demos and Rarities)

I honestly haven't heard any other songs by Cassetter, but I picked up this album on a sale. As expected, it's more retrowave, woo! What I like about this album is that it's purely instrumental. The melodies, crafted from atmospheric synths, are pretty cool. The album offers a little something for every sci-fi whim a writer like me could indulge in, and I see myself drawing inspiration from it for future works. I really ought to check out the band's other works now.

21: Eric Serra - Anna Film Score

Reliable as ever, Eric Serra delivers a cool score for a (somewhat) cool film. There are a couple of pop tracks to match the films' fashion-scene angle, but the rest offers just what you'd expect from a spy movie score--throbbing bass and percussion, mood and style, and atmosphere. It can be mellow and moody at times, but there are bursts of energy. The only thing missing is a distinctive theme, but for listening on its own, I don't think it's all that necessary.

20: Matt Morton - Apollo 11 Film Score

Part of the allure of the Apollo 11 film is the funky way it marries archival footage with a modern soundscape, courtesy of Matt Morton. The synths in this score are no joke--they add an otherworldly air that adds gravitas, tension, and atmosphere to something as mundane as a historic shuttle launch. It's a heck of an experience while watching the film, and it makes for a moody listening experience on its own. It's everything I could ask for when thinking about music for space.

19: Tyler Bates and John Swihart - Far Cry: New Dawn Soundtrack

This may be one of the more unique soundtracks released in 2019--even though Far Cry: New Dawn demands some grit and intensity for its action-packed gameplay, the soundtrack offers some slick synths to accentuate the colorful, neon-rimmed aesthetic the game ultimately aimed for. The result is pretty exciting at times and very moody other times. The "Hope County" track hits me every time with its weird, bending notes, which adds a surreal atmosphere. Other tracks boast pulsing, pounding percussion that accentuates the pulsing synths, but there's an occasional burst of guitar to bring an Earthly sound when needed. It's as emotional as it is awesome.

18: Comaduster - Dark Matter

This band has recent grown on me, and Dark Matter offers exactly what I'd expect out of them: a brand of electronica that achieves high intensity, but maintains an even tempo even when it dives into the darkest melodies. Percussion is nice and strong, the electronic aspects lends an appropriate otherworldly sound, the heavy guitars add weight, and the vocals are smooth. I consider this to be quite the solid album.

17: Dream Theater - Distance Over Time

On par with the bulk of Dream Theater's albums, but hardly derivative or bland. As expected, the album delivers a fresh round of original tunes with fair hooks, phenomenal vocal quality, and powerful guitars. The album is consistently melodic, dramatic, and just plain awesome.

16: Hans Zimmer - Dark Phoenix Film Score 

Arguably, the music may be the sole redeeming quality of the Dark Phoenix film. Hans Zimmer employs his usual tricks (which may be irksome to some folks) to deliver a score that bursts with emotional crescendos--the kind that never seem to end as the notes and keys constantly shift. There's drama and power to the orchestrations, and I find it rather awe-inspiring.

15: Max Richter and Lorne Balfe - Ad Astra Film Score

Much like the Apollo 11 score, Ad Astra's score employs its fair share of pulsing synths to give the film a futuristic and otherworldly ambience. But much like the scores for Interstellar and 2002's Solaris, this score also expresses mood and emotion when warranted. The range of electronic sounds is often appealing track-to-track and scene-to-scene. It matches the movie well, and makes for an inspiring listen.

14: Signal Void - This Liminal Reality

This is on-par with some of the other FiXT "Neon" acts I've lent an ear to--the percussion thumps hard like Scandroid, the synths pulse and waver like Fury Weekend, but the mood and is smooth and atmospheric like Power Glove. What I like about Signal Void's work so far is that it bears all the structural strengths and the right sound of retrowave, but with a sense of gravitas that genuinely feels like music of the future, instead of a mere throwback. It's cool stuff and I can see myself writing to this more often than some of the other bands.

13: The Anix - Hologram

The Anix caught my attention over the past couple of years thanks to their mood and style. They're dark and heavy, but with an electronic flair that places them more in the realms of futuristic rock than straight-up metal. Crisp drums, deep guitars, and haunting voices define Hologram as much as they define their previous work. It's all on-point--if cyberpunk has a sound, it'd probably sound like this album, and it's pretty cool.

12: Tyler Bates and Joel J Richard - John Wick Chapter 3: Parabellum Film Score 

If you've seen these movies and/or heard these soundtracks, you know what to expect. It's becoming more of the same (like the movies?), but it still fits the films like a glove. Mood and style ooze out of each track. The themes, with the dark, slick combination of percussion, piano, and guitar, are still recognizable and characteristic. Above all, this album boasts energy and intensity that matches the on-screen action and is pretty invigorating to hear on its own. The soundscape is also expanded to feature more exotic sounds (thanks mostly to the Casablanca scenes, which warrants more Middle Eastern instruments at certain parts). There are no songs included on this album, unfortunately, although Julia Aks' "Dance of the Two Wolves" is a standout instrumental piece that could give Rob Dougan a run for his money. John Wick is three for three when it comes to music.

11: Sunset Neon - Starlight Remixes

Bret Autrey's brand of synthwave is so on-point as it is, the only thing that could be better are remixes! Granted that the original songs are good fun as they are, I am floored by how smooth these remixes are. The vibes and rearranged melodies exude different ranges of moods and emotions that I find soothing--most especially the Robots With Rayguns remix of "You Are the Sun," which now gets regular spins on a few different playlists of mine.

10: Various Artists - Once Upon A Time In...Hollywood Soundtrack

Like the movie, this is a totally hip time capsule of 1960s Hollywood, complete with old-fashioned radio ads and announcements. Listening to this album is like tuning into a Californian radio station, so the experience is already novel and fun. The actual songs are decent, featuring enough energetic 60s rock to make you want to groove. The album even features a couple familiar hits from different artists: José Feliciano's version of "California Dreaming" and Vanilla Fudge's version of "You Keep Me Hangin' On" are both interesting gems. All of those on top of Deep Purple's "Hush" and a whole bunch of Paul Revere and the Raiders makes this a rather valuable compilation in my ever-growing collection of psychedelic rock.

9: Scandroid - The Light  

Klayton had previously led us into The Darkness, and now he brings us into The Light. As expected, his brand of retrowave still boasts powerful drums, dazzling synths, catchy melodies, all unified by his smooth voice. The vibes are lighthearted, the tempo is often pretty high and brimming with energy. What really blows me away is "New York City Nights," in which a smooth sax accentuates the throwback sound and adds some soul to the mix. The 80s sound never sounded so slick and new.

8: Lindsey Stirling - Artemis

Lindsey Stirling captured my heart with her debut album, and she does it again with her latest. Even though I wasn't particularly enthralled by Shatter Me or Brave Enough, I feel as though Lindsey brought back a certain purity of sound with Artemis, thanks to the simple focus on blending her exquisite violin with throbbing dance tracks. Pop vocals aren't quite as prevalent, and that's probably why I liked this more. I guess I don't ask for much--lay down some violin with some drums and I'm good. Fortunately, the melodies are catchy in Artemis, often to the point of achieving a level of class amidst each song's structure. For the first time in a while, I find myself inspired by this sound again. I also don't mind the sci-fi/anime aesthetic.

7: Rob Dougan - The Life Of The World To Come

The third of a trilogy of EPs Rob Dougan has delivered over the past few years. His latest work has been a refreshing burst of class and quality since his immense hiatus. Even though I find his vocals a little grating in some songs, the instrumentals behind this EP are dang near perfect. There's a sense of drama, melancholy, and joy amidst the classical-inspired orchestration, and there's still a nice modern flair thanks to the percussion. Music like this made it worth the long wait since Furious Angels.

6: Lacuna Coil - Black Anima 

And you thought Delirium was dark and heavy.

These fine Italian headbangers dive headlong into heavy currents of dark melodies, roaring vocals, and raging guitars. The tempo is high, the riffs are intense, and each song boasts catchy melodies. I've always admired Christina Scabbia's voice, which always counterbalanced the darkness with a certain beauty and elegance I can admire--the contrast is starker in this album thanks to Andrea Ferro's growls. And yet, the album manages to experiment a little more, pushing Scabbia's vocals to shocking heights, Ferros' to incredible lows, and even the accompanying sound lucidly flows from electronic to gothic. It's all harmonized in a unique way that invokes the very feelings I come to admire from the band--I'm still in awe over the way they merge darkness and beauty.

5: Queensrÿche - The Verdict

While I find it hard to connect with new work that some 80s bands produce (looking at you guys, Aerosmith, Def Leppard, Boston) Queensrÿche surpasses my expectations by delivering a sound that's most certainly the stuff of heavy metal dreams, but is still fresh thanks to its remarkable hooks, daring melodies, and sheer vocal power. Every song in The Verdict feels like a winner--catchy, fast, but harmonic. Above all, there's an uplifting power behind the spectacular guitars and melodies--the kind of power that makes me feel alive.

4: Leah - Ancient Winter 

Just about all year, Leah promoted her latest self-produced album that promises a winter theme for her brand of Celtic-infused metal (and I was a backer, naturally--Leah won me over with Kings & Queens). When I finally heard the final product, I felt it was a mellow affair--the guitars are far more subdued than from her previous albums, to the point where it feels more like folk and less like metal. And yet, I'm pleased by the sound. Soothed, in fact. For a Christmas album, it's a perfect fit. There's still a decent tempo and sense of power to it, but the Celtic elements combined with Leah's beautiful voice add a new age flavor I find elegant. It stirs the imagination as much as it does the soul.

3: Thomas Newman - Tolkien Film Score

I mean, it's no Howard Shore, but there is a gentle, soothing quality to Thomas Newman's oeuvre that could just as easily make you feel at home in the Shire. With the Tolkien score, Newman taps into the familiar new age style that Shore exemplified in his movie scores, but with far less pomp. There is still a clash of light and dark, but the whole album plays smoothly and softly, becoming a wonderful ambience that I find inspiring. It matches the movie just fine, but on its own, it's lovely and soulful. It sets a perfect mood for fantasy writers, and it can serve as music to relax to. I can't think of a more perfect album to conjure up images of dragons, magical rings, and the beauty of nature.

2: Rammstein (Self Titled)

Another band makes a bold comeback, this time after a ten year gap. Rammstein hits their notes hard as ever, still boasting catchy riffs and hooks amidst an intoxicating miasma of industrial drums, guitars, and punchy vocals. There's practically no filler to this album--every song becomes an earworm that's hard to shake. I am especially floored by "Puppe," easily the darkest and most gut-wrenching metal song I've heard all year. I mean, damn--is Till Lindemann okay? Somebody better give him a hug soon--his chorus exudes pure agony (see Jonathan Davis, that's how you express trauma).

Rammstein's discography has been loaded with awesome hits, but their latest album ought to stand as one of their best. The only reason I don't rank it as number one is because one other band made a heck of a comeback this year, and I've been listening to it far more often and intently...

1: Tool - Fear Inoculum

It's been thirteen years since 10,000 Days (funnily enough, it hasn't been a literal 10,000 Days, that would have been a 27 year wait). Tool unveiled their latest work in some kind of crazy packaging that plays a video when you open it. Yes, I own a copy and it's so indulgent and crazy that I actually kind of like it.

If it's one common thing I've noted in all these albums I've written about, it's that I've been attracted to sounds that are smooth. Not slow, not soft, but an even tempo with sounds I find pleasing. Even in a metal album like this, Tool achieves a level of lucid smoothness I find appealing, most especially in the song "Fear Inoculum," which starts off like a kind of meditation and gradually intensifies with throbbing guitar blasts. I am most especially enamored by the riffs and lyrics of "Pneuma," a song that practically begs for spiritual awakening. Every other song is solid. And complex. And long. The whole album is a feast of sound, so full of timbre, depth, and melody. And yet, the guitars still sound awesome and catchy. But it all goes down my ears smoothly thanks to its restrained cadence.

Tool always strives for a certain worldly sound and aesthetic, which seems to extend beyond the physical world. If there can be such a thing as meditation in metal (heavy, progressive, what have you), then Fear Inoculum succeeds in a way I find palatable and invoking. I know other fans prefer their older albums over this (most especially Lateralus and Ænima), probably because they offer heavier riffs. I'm content to pop in Fear Inoculum and become lost in its dark sea of thought and feeling, over and over again.

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January 23, 2020

Al's Review of 2019 In Video Games

Last updated January 22 2020.

The new decade begins at an exciting precipice. The modern generation is as slick as ever, as gamers enjoy a variety of old and new games on 4K displays, powered by high-end hardware, often with the option for virtual reality and motion controls.

Honestly, I haven't even taken advantage of the full range of technological marvels. My PS4 is the older model that outputs in 1080p, and I've never invested in a VR headset. I'm still not even sure if VR is a good idea or not. Chances are I'm missing out on a whole world of gaming opportunities by skimping out on Nintento products and the X-Box.

Regardless, the games still look pretty smooth and clean on the equipment I have, and in 2019 I enjoyed a consistent amount of gaming time. I wish I could say I played a lot of great new games, but it's only amounted to a handful. What is surprising is that many old games have received ports on the PS4, and they've been a hoot. This includes 2009's Ghostbusters (which rightfully could stand in as a viable third chapter for the motion pictures), 2002's Star Wars: Jedi Outcast, and collections of old arcade classics like Contra and Castlevania.

What is disappointing about 2019 is that many of the titles I looked forward to the most (like Doom: Eternal and Cyberpunk 2077) were ultimately pushed back into next year. I'm not entirely mad about it though--if the additional development time churns them into better products, then so be it. What will make the next few years more thrilling will be the possibilities of new generation consoles hitting the market. Rumors indicate that the PS5 may be a beast of a machine, able to render games in unprecedented speed and quality. Chances are that other consoles will follow suit and may even surpass the PlayStation, although I look forward to the 5 specifically for its supposed backwards compatibility. It is my hopes that the games I have on the PSN will still be playable on future systems.

It's hard to believe that it's now been six years since the PS4 came out, and twelve years since I bought the PS3. I still have a gaming backlog on both systems. Regardless, I did make some time for the latest releases that interested me, and it's been a pretty interesting year. After a long, dry stretch with nothing really interesting, I took a chance on some titles that caught my eye: The Outer Worlds, Control, and Death Stranding. The latter two struck a chord with me in particular, since my writing ventures have drifted into the realms of surrealism, cosmic horror, and the paranormal--these games fed my imagination in quite incredible ways. Death Stranding, despite all its indulgences and mundane gameplay, managed to captivate me the most with its unique worldbuilding and addicting reward system. Control, however, is a game that strung me along with its captivating mysteries and enigmas--even as its story is unveiled and the combat becomes more powerful, the game still bears an aura of something dark and otherworldly. These were the games I didn't even know I wanted, but they turned out to be just what I needed.

With the hype of Star Wars Episode IX: Rise of Skywalker, EA surprised everybody with its own franchise entry, Jedi: Fallen Order. It had been a long time since a Star Wars game captivated me, but this one did the trick. Loved the gameplay and I liked the story. Earlier in the year, games like Far Cry: New Dawn and Borderlands 3 satisfied my gaming itch, and they've been satisfying.

Aside from some titles being delayed, I haven't experienced any disappointments this year.

AL'S TOP 2019 GAMES

7: Observation 
Through the many eyes of a space station's computer, you play an artificial intelligence that watches its fellow astronauts, guiding them from danger and solving problems that inevitably lead them across an interstellar odyssey. It's a bit of a slow-burner, given that the cameras move and zoom rather slowly as you scour the cramped modules for data and things to control. It is a neat story though, full of surprise, atmosphere, and emotion.

6: Far Cry: New Dawn 
It's a pretty meaty expansion on yesteryear's Far Cry 5, offering a lengthy post-apocalyptic epilogue to the last game's story. It's practically enough content to be its own game, but the gameplay and controls remain the same. The story is fine and all, carrying over the same themes as previous games. It's the world that makes it awesome, and it is a fabulous sight full of detail and color. The map is pretty stuffed with things to do, but even if you explore the whole thing, there are expeditions that take you to other unique areas with their own set of challenges. Sneaking and combat remain satisfying as ever. Even in the blazes of a nuclear inferno, the fundamentals of Far Cry remain the same, making this a solid entry in the franchise.

5: Borderlands 3 
For a time, this was my most anticipated release. It did not disappoint. It's very much more of the same, but with more. As in, a bajillion more weapons, interesting new characters with new powers, a bunch of new worlds brimming with quests and challenges. The story broadens the Borderlands universe in an immersive and fun way. Even at their most psychotic, the characters remain an endearing bunch thanks to their comedy and chemistry. It all looks great and runs well. Above all, the gameplay is deep enough to warrant endless hours of playing and slaying.

4: The Outer Worlds 
It's basically a mash-up of Fallout and the Firefly TV show. I think that's a good thing--the gameplay alone keeps me enthralled with simple things like looting, leveling, exploring, and questing. Combat is fair, but it's the RPG aspects and story that kept me invested. Like it was with Mass Effect, it became very gratifying to find a ship, assemble a crew, and take off on exciting missions. In this case though, the retro aesthetic offers a unique flavor that I find classy and cool.

3: Jedi: Fallen Order
This plays like a modern Tomb Raider game, but with the checkpoint system of Dark Souls and the combat of Shadow of Mordor. Combined, these aspects make Jedi: Fallen Order a rather compelling challenge--fighting stormtroopers and Sith inquisitors takes patience, but becomes rewarding as the character levels up and gains more power. I was addicted to exploring the maps to find all their secrets. Above all though, this is an interesting story that fits well into the Star Wars canon, but without falling back on excessive nostalgia. There are a lot of cool new things to experience in this game, even if it feels familiar.

2: Control 
This game hooked me with all the same narrative tricks a good book or film would use--compelling mysteries and story questions, surreal details that demand explanation, character motivations that are gradually revealed, and bizarre world-building. The first few chapters of this game gave me a strong David Lynch vibe, before answers came and this became something like inFamous meets the X-Files. Once you unlock weapons and powers, the game blazes through some gripping paranormal combat, while its story continues to dive into dark, unreal dimensions. I found this whole experience refreshingly unique and satisfying--easily one of the most original games I've seen in a long time, which could only be surpassed by...

1: Death Stranding
Death Stranding is an experience that demonstrates how gaming can be a work of art. If for no other reason than it's bound to be polarizing. Even Kojima confessed that many gamers will be put off by the core gameplay, which amounts to nothing more than walking across a rugged map to deliver tons of cargo to people in bunkers. Not only is it tedious, but the game also demands an aggravating amount of nuance as you're forced to balance yourself, evaluate weight and sizes, and optimize routes. All of that while defending against cargo-addicted bandits, sneaking past ghosts, and protecting an infant attached to your chest.

The game initially sold me on its stranger aspects--the world-building involved with this game is elaborate, to the point where it feels excessive at times. What I admire, however, is that the game uses its premise to deliver a unique and challenging kind of gameplay. As any good game should, it takes its time to slowly immerse the player in its story and train the player on how to handle its various challenges. You don't even get a gun in this until much later in the story--killing is not even the focus (and the game seems to make it a point to steer players away from outright violence, going so far as forcing the player to handle the consequences of a dead body). What the game teaches you instead is stealth and how to care for your packages.

The focus on logistics is where the game may lose its interest--as a person employed in the logistics field, I can't help but to get a little excited when the game draws its thematic parallels between a logistics network and "building bridges." Connection is the point of the game, and your success not only depends on rebuilding America coast-to-coast, but in tapping into the Chiral network to share other players' structures and resources. I found it gratifying to build things that other players used, and it was very rewarding to have other players' things appear when I needed them to.

The story for this sprawling monster of a game is very twisted and involving, to the point where it's often indulgent, and it doesn't even make that much sense in the end. Some of the reveals are simply too hard to stomach. Most of the dialogue is exposition. It's hardly the best-written game, but I'm rather forgiving of it because I liked the characters and was drawn to their personalities. I was pleased with the actors and the overall quality of the game. All of that, and the simple pleasure of being rewarded for making delivery after delivery, kept me engaged for hours. It all added up to one of the longest, deepest, most unique gaming experiences I've had all year.

AL'S NOTABLE ACHIEVEMENTS
  •  In the months leading up to the release of Borderlands 3, I replayed Borderlands 1 and part of 2, this time on the PS4. I dug through most of the DLCs that I never played before.
  • Won platinum trophies for Control, the remastered Ghosbusters, Destroy All Humans! (the port, not the remake), Blackwood Crossing, Far Cry 3, and the first Borderlands game.
  • Played a good chunk of Assassin's Creed: Odyssey. It is probably my favorite of the series, but since I put it down I forgot about it and became distracted by other games.
  • At the beginning of the year, I was still fooling around with Hitman 2.
  • Started a new playthrough of Shadow of Mordor, this time with the GOTY edition.
  • Started a new playthrough of Catherine, this time with the "Full Body" edition on the PS4.
  • Dabbled with some horror titles in October. I'm not even sure if I can handle some of these--games like Amnesia, Outlast, and Alien: Isolation can give me some serious anxiety. However, I was enjoying Until Dawn.
  • Started a lot of games that I need to finish, including some of the ones listed above. Other games started: Dark Souls, Darksiders, Star Wars: Jedi Outcast, Everspace, and Diablo III.
GAMES AL IS LOOKING FORWARD TO IN 2020

Cyberpunk 2077: The game trailer has me sold. Cyberpunk is a genre I admire, extending to the Deux Ex games, although I'm certain that Cyberpunk 2077 will put more emphasis on combat and "punk" than atmosphere. It looks cool, slick, and exciting. And it has Keanu Reeves. Whoa.

Doom Eternal: My enjoyment of the 2016 game and the preview footage floating around Youtube has me excited for the next installment. What I've seen so far looks quite extreme, over-the-top, colorful, gory, and it ought to be just rip-roaring fun.

The Last of Us Part II: The first part remains on of the most emotional stories I've seen in a video game. The second chapter is bound to be just as punchy. Existing previews look intense, promising interesting new directions and characters, but with brutal new challenges.

January 1, 2020

Happy New Year 2020!

2019 is over, and with it a whole decade comes to a close. The year passed in a flash, probably due to a consistently busy work schedule. All of the 2010s passed by slowly though. It's hard to believe that so much had changed between 2009 and now.
In ten years, I lived and worked in three different places--from England to Utah to Georgia. In each place, I've met so many different people, many of whom have offered lessons, connections, and even fond memories. Each workplace offered their fair share of challenges. In each place I called a home, there were beautiful landscapes, fascinating history, and unique cultures worth exploring.

In 2019, I've had the chance the see several interesting new sights. While my mother attended a conference in Atlanta, I went to see Stone Mountain Park, where a massive mural is engraved in the side of a massive granite mound. In April, I flew with my dad to Seattle, where we visited family members we hadn't seen in a long time and catch up with them. It was also a chance to see the tulip festival, museums (including the LeMays Car Museum and the National Nordic Museum), and picturesque sites in surrounding towns (including a Bavarian town called Leavenworth). Later in the summer, I saw the city of Norfolk and I took a tour of the USS Wisconsin--an Iowa-class battleship that had served during WWII and the Cold War, but is now docked in the city and open to the public. Towards the end of the year, I saw the town of Camden, which hosted a reenactment from the Revolutionary War. These were all rather short trips, but it was far more than I had in the previous year. I probably have as many memories as I do photos.

Outside from these excursions, I've spent my time simply working and going home every day. Same as it was last year. There are a few things that have never changed in the past decade--as I did in 2009, I still watch quite a large amount of films and play video games. I've written several manuscripts, some short stories, but over the past five years or so my understanding of the craft changed dramatically. It happened because I did something I should have done years ago--I sought critiques from other writers, and it underscored problems that I never even knew I had. It's caused me to change the way I write most pieces, and in turn it's caused me to see other works (books and films alike) in a more critical light. The learning process is still ongoing and will likely never end.

This has been one of a few things that made me realize that I may not know as much as I think I do. I thought I knew about writing and storytelling, but it's become clear that there are lessons, techniques, and patterns I was oblivious to. But even in other aspects of life--such as my other hobbies, my knowledge in the workplace, my interactions with people--things I thought I knew turn out to be wrong.

With these shortcomings in mind, it is my intention to achieve a better level of personal discipline this year. In part, it means learning to be patient, listen more, and stop assuming I know all the answers. I hope to improve my attitude, regardless of how cynical the rest of the world becomes.

In other respects to obtaining discipline, I also wish to control my time and actions in a way that facilitates my other goals. One of those goals is to lower my weight--it is something I thought I could control, but it's become apparent that my eating and exercise habits need more accountability, and that's a process that's already been implemented.

If I hope to become a better writer, I always hear that I need to read more. Maybe a lot more. Last year, I succeeded in reading 16 books all the way through--some of which were graphic novels. More should be easily possible, I just need to set aside the time for it. Doing so will mean cutting the amount of time I spend on movies, TV, and video games. Limiting those kinds of activities will probably do me good anyway.

At the same time, my media collection remains rather huge and full of titles that I have never seen. Many of these come from box sets I've collected. It would be nice to get through all 300 or so blind-buys, but one thing is certain: I will be collecting a lot less in the upcoming year.

Last year, I had the goal to have a new novel ready for publication. Or at least something presentable to beta readers. This never happened. Most of my manuscripts remain in pieces, and it's become clear to me that I need to do more work on plotting, outlining, and making developmental edits. I intend on spending more time to do this on old and new projects, but it may also mean more study, reading, or critiquing. Whether editing or doing actual writing, I'd like to make it a focus every day, even if for just an hour.

Those are the broad resolutions I have this year, and it amounts to becoming a better, healthier, more proactive person and a better writer. If I can keep it all up, I anticipate that the 2020s could be a successful decade, no matter how frightening the future and all its challenges and changes may be.